I said it wasn't mine either, but it happened. And I can't even claim a spur of the moment Vegas affair neither of us remembered and got rid of as soon as we could. I got a proper proposal in the form of a song and it lasted five years Well. Three, three and a half when we were actually really together.
[she doesn't want to rant about how now she sees that it was a way for Brian to have power over her, even if it was only on paper, and that he'd used the open marriage talk as a smokescreen. Or maybe he hadn't, maybe he'd meant it at the time and just got lost. She'd like to say she understands him now, but she's sure he doesn't even understand himself. She'd also like to claim Ladytron doesn't still have the power to make her cry, but that would be one of the biggst lies she's ever told]
It is. And, having had experience with a fair number of others, I'd say it's one of the hardest to kick and not pick up again. The way I dropped it the last time certainly wasn't much prettier than what I've seen some of the junkies I know go through. I think, like the others, it's a lot easier to say you'll just be a casual user in theory than it is in practice. Like all those other illicit substances, it's got a nasty way of making you want it a lot more than you thought you would.
[she knows logically not everyone is the toxin Brian turned into, but it's hard not to be...well, the bitter ex. She hates that once more, she's fitting so well into the role she's sure he wanted her to fill]
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[she doesn't want to rant about how now she sees that it was a way for Brian to have power over her, even if it was only on paper, and that he'd used the open marriage talk as a smokescreen. Or maybe he hadn't, maybe he'd meant it at the time and just got lost. She'd like to say she understands him now, but she's sure he doesn't even understand himself. She'd also like to claim Ladytron doesn't still have the power to make her cry, but that would be one of the biggst lies she's ever told]
It is. And, having had experience with a fair number of others, I'd say it's one of the hardest to kick and not pick up again. The way I dropped it the last time certainly wasn't much prettier than what I've seen some of the junkies I know go through. I think, like the others, it's a lot easier to say you'll just be a casual user in theory than it is in practice. Like all those other illicit substances, it's got a nasty way of making you want it a lot more than you thought you would.
[she knows logically not everyone is the toxin Brian turned into, but it's hard not to be...well, the bitter ex. She hates that once more, she's fitting so well into the role she's sure he wanted her to fill]