[ kavinsky calls him out so succinctly and nico can't disagree with him. yes, eventually, he would've accepted himself, come to terms with who and what he is. but nico has always been the kind of person to prefer doing things on his own terms, in his own time. ]

I would've come out eventually. It would've taken time, but I would've realized people accept gays in this day and age. I would've learned to accept myself. But I wanted to do it at my own pace. Figure things out on my own so I could stand on my own two feet without having to say some asshole god made me admit it.

[ looking up at kavinsky, his brows furrow and his hands ball into fists at his sides. ]

I should've been able to do it myself. Not because Cupid gets off on forcing people to do things they're not ready to do.