Just a... drug of some sort to stop my powers. Look, darling, please listen to me, yeah? I'm not mad, I know you think I am, that whatever they did to me buggered me up, but I promise you I'm not.

[ They were words he didn't often use, at least outside of BDSM play. Words like 'please' and 'promise' were rare to nonexistent away from the bedroom. He was desperate to show how serious he was, how clear he was thinking, but he didn't know if Rafa could hear him. Knowing how much they loved each other in this world he probably wouldn't have either in his shoes.

It was tempting to stay. The thought of ignoring the existence of Xistentia, of staying in this world where he was loved without opponents was like a siren's call. It would be so easy to let Rafa prove his love for him by torturing Janus, to know that he inspired that action within his lover made his heart pound.

But he couldn't do that, it was an illusion that was meant to shatter. He woke up, which meant it was only a matter of time before Rafa did as well. Nothing good ever lasted forever for him, so he accepted the fact that he'd have to 'the right thing' here, no matter how much he didn't want to. ]

Wait a moment, yeah? It'll come back to you, you'll remember too. You'll remember Hunter and Shane and remember your home is with them, not me.