2 truths and a lie; daemon: chainsawd

[fiachdubh]

[ If you were to see how this came about, you might be amused. Turns out Adam Parrish, wanting revenge from the Employment AMA network post, has decided to take over Chainsawd while Ronan is in the bathroom.

It's the work of a few minutes. He's stealthy. ]

2 TRUTHS AND A LIE
Preferred Alias: Ronan Lynch; the Greywaren

1. I coo over baby goats in tiny sweaters when I think there's no one around to see.
2. I own more t-shirts than the gap, but I wear the same shredded one every day because I think it makes me look like a badass
3. My tattoo is designed to be dangerous and full of claws, and beaks, and thorns (but the flowers are my boyfriend's favourite part)

One Of These Is A Lie

Comments

[fiachdubh]

i thought i accepted how i feel a long time ago,
actually

back when we weren't together

but then i guess he took me by surprise by wanting to be with me

[helical]

Thats a different kind of confusion. It kind of sticks with you but it turns into something else, more like... awe I guess. Like you can't really believe its happening to you but it is

[fiachdubh]

it's the first time in my life i'm worried i'm going to fuck up enough and lose it

i never used to give a shit

[helical]

( ok THAT alec cannot relate to whatsoever. but he does have advice. )

That just means making efforts sometimes and compromises other times

And talking to him about stuff.

[fiachdubh]

see, we're not extremely good at the talking thing

we prefer to... not

[helical]

I said efforts and compromises didn't I

If you want it to work you might have to do stuff you'd rather not do. But you do it anyway for him

[fiachdubh]

does it ever get easier to do? because right now,
every time we start having a talk, it ends in a fucking fight

[helical]

It does. You learn about each other and understand each other better so eventually you know why that person is acting that way or what theyre really trying to say

[fiachdubh]

aren't you scared of getting bored?

[helical]

No? Bored of what

[fiachdubh]

him
bored of him, of knowing him so well, of not having any edge left

[helical]

Answer's still no. Maybe it's because I'd never been with anyone before him but I don't see knowing someone that well as something boring

Just gives you more possibilities

[fiachdubh]

possibilities for what?

I'm genuinely asking. I know fuck all about relationships, I'm just barging my way through this shit.

[helical]

More possibilities to find things to do, ways you can connect, ways you can do things for each other, that kind of stuff?

I dont...uh. I dont talk about this stuff a lot. Except with Magnus

[fiachdubh]

Magnus
Magnus is your guy?

[ Well now. That's interesting. ]

[helical]

Yeah. Is it that surprising?

[fiachdubh]

I guess, a little. He's just so... extra, and you're so... not.

Not saying it's a bad thing. He's interesting.

[helical]

Hard to meet anyone else like him, right? But it goes to show you can be different in some ways and still be a good fit

[fiachdubh]

Sometimes I think Adam and I are too alike in some ways and that's what makes us fight so often

[ jesus christ Lynch stop pouring your heart out. ]

[helical]

I dont know. Magnus and I are a lot alike we're just different on the surface

I think we'd fight a lot more if we didnt listen to each other. Like i said youre going to have to put some effort into it like saying sorry if you said something you shouldnt have said and things like that

If youre that alike then you can put yourself in his shoes right?

[fiachdubh]

i guess it's complicated
we're the same in a lot of ways, but then we're very different in ways that he'd tell you are the ones that matter

we're shaped differently and it's hard for us to put ourselves in each other's shoes because of it

don't get me wrong i'm willing to try, but it's not exactly. our forte.

[helical]

Sometimes people do things and you dont understand why until you learn something new about them
All you can do is try i guess. you have to be willing to compromise and be patient

[fiachdubh]

how long have you been with Magnus

[helical]

Year and a half

[fiachdubh]

and you're already married?