2 truths and a lie; daemon: chainsawd

[fiachdubh]

[ If you were to see how this came about, you might be amused. Turns out Adam Parrish, wanting revenge from the Employment AMA network post, has decided to take over Chainsawd while Ronan is in the bathroom.

It's the work of a few minutes. He's stealthy. ]

2 TRUTHS AND A LIE
Preferred Alias: Ronan Lynch; the Greywaren

1. I coo over baby goats in tiny sweaters when I think there's no one around to see.
2. I own more t-shirts than the gap, but I wear the same shredded one every day because I think it makes me look like a badass
3. My tattoo is designed to be dangerous and full of claws, and beaks, and thorns (but the flowers are my boyfriend's favourite part)

One Of These Is A Lie

Comments

[fiachdubh]

[ Ronan scrolls back up to the post that Adam wrote, squinting at it for a second. And also allowing his heart to start beating in his throat at the word boyfriend. He didn't even notice it on the first read-through. ]

I'm embarrassed he posted it. It's private. I don't roll out my private life on social media.

[helical]

( alec is with ronan on this 100%, and it wouldve been a much bigger issue for him in the past. not one to offer up information about himself easily, though, he'll try the advice route. )

You should probably tell him you don't like it then. Assuming the guy who posted it is the supposed boyfriend he should respect that

[fiachdubh]

I told him. Do you have anyone in your life you can't stay angry at?

[ It's fucking annoying, because Ronan is very good at being angry usually. ]

[helical]

Yeah. I'm married to him

( alec is past thinking it's annoying. YOU CAN GET THERE TOO, RONAN. )

[fiachdubh]

well fuck

[ Isn't that a terrifying thought. ]

is he infuriating

[helical]

No

But others might give you a different answer. If you cross him or he doesn't like you or he's mad at you you'll know

[fiachdubh]

adam's probably worse to other people than he is to me
although we fight a lot. this shit's confusing

guess i kinda. like the guy. despite everything.

[ WHY IS HE SAYING ANY OF THIS. ]

[helical]

( alec is feeling a weird urge to Share Things too and its WEIRD. )

Whats confusing, the fighting or that you like him anyway

Because that's kind of the whole thing.

[fiachdubh]

the fighting i'm used to. it's the fact that i still want to be around him after a fight, or like. all the time.

this is all new to me

[helical]

I didnt really like anyone except my family until I met him so I know about the whole. Confusing thing.

But that's kind of how you know it's... important and special

[fiachdubh]

uh. neither did i, besides gansey, but gansey's like family

so how did you get over the confusion?

[helical]

The whole thing is kind of a long story but it got a lot less confusing once i just accepted i felt that way, i guess

The more time you spend with him the more sense itll make if you let yourself feel the way you do

[fiachdubh]

i thought i accepted how i feel a long time ago,
actually

back when we weren't together

but then i guess he took me by surprise by wanting to be with me

[helical]

Thats a different kind of confusion. It kind of sticks with you but it turns into something else, more like... awe I guess. Like you can't really believe its happening to you but it is

[fiachdubh]

it's the first time in my life i'm worried i'm going to fuck up enough and lose it

i never used to give a shit

[helical]

( ok THAT alec cannot relate to whatsoever. but he does have advice. )

That just means making efforts sometimes and compromises other times

And talking to him about stuff.

[fiachdubh]

see, we're not extremely good at the talking thing

we prefer to... not

[helical]

I said efforts and compromises didn't I

If you want it to work you might have to do stuff you'd rather not do. But you do it anyway for him

[fiachdubh]

does it ever get easier to do? because right now,
every time we start having a talk, it ends in a fucking fight

[helical]

It does. You learn about each other and understand each other better so eventually you know why that person is acting that way or what theyre really trying to say

[fiachdubh]

aren't you scared of getting bored?

[helical]

No? Bored of what

[fiachdubh]

him
bored of him, of knowing him so well, of not having any edge left

[helical]

Answer's still no. Maybe it's because I'd never been with anyone before him but I don't see knowing someone that well as something boring

Just gives you more possibilities

[fiachdubh]

possibilities for what?

I'm genuinely asking. I know fuck all about relationships, I'm just barging my way through this shit.