xistentia | First Song ♫ Video (Daemon: Apollod)

[ Hello, Xistentia!

For the most part, Rose has only graced the network with text based off the ice breaker games that F.A.T.E.S. encourages. Today, however, everyone is greeted by a video of the blond. She's pulling a Jenny ala Forrest Gump and appears to not be wearing clothes behind her guitar. She is, of course. A strapless bra and some underwear but the audience don't know that, which is just how she likes it.

The backdrop isn't her house with Vanyel, observant viewers who know where she lives might catch onto. It's actually the apartment she was designated when she arrived but had opted not to live in because of aforementioned prior arrangements. But now she's here and it has surprisingly good acoustics, so! She sets to playing the instrument soon as the video begins, melodic voice following soon after, ]

I woke up, on a wave that crashes, when will the tide return? And if you leave, with only ashes, can't rebuild what has been burned. And down the road, with all the seeds grown, and benefit of view we throw away, the things we want most, depending on our mood. I don't know where you are, I don't know where I'm going but I can't be that far from where your heart is flowing.

[ She continues to play until the song is finished. Once the last bars of the song hum in the air, she lifts her her gaze to look right into the camera. ]

Tell me, everyone. What does the word 'love' mean to you? Not a trick question, I promise, I'm just... curious.

[ There's a slight pause, as she looks away. Then brown eyes are fixed intently into the lens again. ]

Also, does anyone want to do one of those missions with me? I kind of want to get stuff done, honestly. Feel like I'm accomplishing something. Let me know. I'd be happy to do or help with whatever.

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[ Rose misses easy, honestly. For as much as she enjoys love and its many splendors, there are times when... She almost wishes for her life before.

Just, y'know, with less dying. ]

Vanyel and I got into an argument over... us, I guess. I'm seeing other people, but he's not and that's. [ Sighs. ] It's not what we agreed on. So I got angry and he tried to explain but I didn't want to hear it.

And Farraige saw me with someone besides Vanyel and that upset him, too. Since we'd talked it all out - the three of us - but I guess he's still not as sure about other people being involved or. Something.

[ It's

a little bit of a mess, basically. ]

[ Rafa's head tilts while he wraps it around those two problems. Quite distinct problems. He chews his lip. ]

So you wish to be completely open, but Farraige believed he shared you with one other. Only talking to him can resolve that, Rosie. Not all are content to share at all.

And Vanyel…

[ Rafa frowns. ]

Would it be terrible if he did not seek another? Perhaps he does not wish it. My Shane has never wanted to.

[ Why can't she just have it all? The way she wants? The idea that her and Farraige, or worse, her and Vanyel might not be compatible in the end because they ultimately want different things is... She doesn't want to think about it. ]

I will. Eventually. [ Maybe. Okay, no, she will. She just... needs to work up the courage to apologize after being so terrible. ]

It's not. A bad thing? I guess. I mean, I just- I know how he is. Or how he was, before me. That seemed to make him happiest. I never wanted to take that away and I guess I panicked and thought maybe I did.

[ Rafa smiles. ]

A wise man once told me that it is not for me to decide what makes another man happy. Vanyel too should make his own choice.

All you can do is decide what you are willing to offer, and then they must decide if that is what they want. I am sorry, however, if pain comes to you from their choice.

[ ... Hm. Rose was doing it again, wasn't she? Deciding things for other people. ]

... Alright, [ she concedes. ] I just. I hate not having any control in it.

[ She hates not having control in general, actually, but. Details. ]

[ He shrugs his shoulders. ]

You cannot control how another person feels, Rosie. Only your own actions. And reactions.

[ He says, with a little lifted eyebrow in the direction of her image. ]

If the point of this is to remind them what they are missing, I am sure they got the message.

[ But she wannnttttssss to. A dramatic sigh. Really, this entire post is a bit Dramatic but she's feeling the need for a tiny pity party. ]

That obvious, huh? Haven't heard from either of them yet though, so. Guess we'll see.

Edited 2017-10-07 01:16 (UTC)

Yes. I would be surprised if they, ah. Rise to the bait, shall we say?

[ He's maybe judging just a little tiny bit. ]

Edited 2017-10-08 01:57 (UTC)

[ Wow!!! She hears that mild judgement in his tone.

That she is totally deserving of and is aware of this fact. BUT STILL!!! ]

I'm a musician, man. I got to have a little flair for the dramatic occasionally.

[ Rafa tries to be as gentle as he can. ]

Sometimes, how we look to others, and how we think we look, are not the same. Were I angry with someone who wanted my attention so badly, I would direct it elsewhere.

I suggest going to them, privately. You may find better results that way.

Alright, I'll. I'll talk to them.

[ That's a very good suggestion, Rafa.

One that Rose will immediately ignore and do the opposite of by openly inviting someone else to come to her apartment where she's naked. Quietly hope that her boyfriends see how fine she is without them since they hadn't bothered to respond to this. She won't talk to them either.

(No one said she was good at this.) ]

I hope it goes well.

[ Says Rafa, in innocence, without any understanding of how much worse she's about to make it. Well, no one can say he didn't try to help. ]

First Song ♫ Video (Daemon: Apollod)

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